Sunday, April 26, 2009

I completely forgot....I blame old age!

Wow, I completely forgot that I had this blog. I had trouble logging in, so I decided to log into 'old Blogger' and up it came. I tell ya, if I hadn't read the post from when I was having a hard time after my cat was shot, I think I might not have recognized the blog.

Well, that's not entirely true. I would have recognized my statement of intent as to putting forth an unworthy effort. LOL!

I think I'm doing much better managing my depression now as compared to a few years ago. So, that's improved.

Now if I could just get the freakin' air conditioner working in this house.... Thank goodness, though, it's not July or August. That's happened a couple of times in the past 5 years and it is DEADLY HOT!! Now it's just warm and stuffy in the house. But The Air Conditioner Man is coming tomorrow, praise be, so I'll be ridin' high......

Wednesday, January 25, 2006

I'm here

OK. Here I am, since ya'll have wondered when I would update this thing.

I've been having a real hard time since Peachy died. Not just dealing with the grief over his loss, but also with the feeling that nothing will ever be alright again. Pretty scary. (Especially for me, as ya'll know.)

I have managed to not burst out crying for a few hours at a time. And generally, I'm not crying for hours like I was just a couple of days ago. But everything still feels cold, silent, empty, and frightening. So, not so great at this end.

However, I go on because I have to. And I hope that my sense of security, which (despite my frequent anxieties over the trivialities of my life) never really left me when Peachy was alive, somehow will return if I just wait long enough. (Or I'll just die, which I am CERTAIN will eventually happen if I just wait long enough...ha ha.)

Sorry for such a depressing post, but that's what's happening at my end.
Love you guys.

Sunday, October 30, 2005

In the Beginning...

Ok. Started this so I could leave a comment on my friend's blog. Oh well. I shall attempt to put forth an unworthy effort so that I can truly bore you to death, there by killing all my enemies both foreign and domestic.